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This and thaaaaaaaaaat…..

******* January 26, 2017 *******

yeah yeah yeah…

I know, I know. I’m very overdue for this blog. So I think it’s time to update y’all on my Amytastic life….

 

So, I had my first surgery on the right eye for my Graves Disease. Below is the slideshow on all of that….

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I’m having the left eye surgery on the 7th of February. Just around the corner. At Jacobs/Thornton Hospital. I’ll be there overnight, so feel free to check in or visit… Bring food offerings… Hahaha! No, like seriously. I had no food last time because I got out surgery later and I didn’t have the heart to ask Rob to get me food. There’s hardly any food offerings in that section of La Jolla unless you visit the mall… Yeah, no!

Thanksgiving was especially awesome… Excellent food offerings by all three of us.

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As for Christmas, we were sad to not attend my amazing Godparents dinner because I was Looking a bit GOONIESish!

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I made the exact dinner my beautiful and hardworking Godmother Angela made for the family tasty!

New Years was even better. It’s been awhile since I’ve had a kiss at midnight…

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And so that leads us to today. Sitting a Shiley. Pre-op stuff. The best thing is…  We get to spend the night with my favorite BFFs and brothers from excellent and beloved mothers, Robbie and Gregg. And I get to see FINNIE!! I’m just now getting into Prim’s inner circle. She’s slept on the guest bed with me and STAYED!! I’m flabbergasted! She finally lets me walk her and pet her and even pick her up and hold her. Making moves there!

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So so that’s my life in a nutshell since the last time I updated!

…. And if you are Aunt Judy’s (my dads first wife) husband…. A BIG HUGE SHOUT OUT to you for keeping up with my crazy!

 

 

 

1 Year. Humbled.

(As spoken at today’s meeting. March 15, 2016 – Noon.

The Huddle on Goldfinch, San Diego, CA)

  • Thank you Anna… There is no one better to have done this today. Your guidance has shaped me. Any time I had questions, needed a reading, needed advice… You are always there. You are one of the most kindest, gentle and extraordinary people I am honored to call my “person”.
  • Mom, Sitsi Angela and Parino Joe… I just can’t make amends enough..
  • Mitch, you saved my life. #BestPrivateNurseEVER!!!
  • My family. You are #Everything!

It’s not as rare anymore, being rather speechless, but I really, honestly, have nothing to say…

Except, I will say this, Humbly. To everyone here at The Huddle and those not able to be at this meeting..

Your support and love, all of the things I have done this past year. I didn’t know I needed all that support until I truly realized I needed it. If you call upon, the answers will make themselves known.

It’s not just my sobriety.

All of you have helped me accept my new journey, my life diagnosis. You have taught me how to not avoid. How to define avoidance and what it means to have acceptance and freedom from avoidance. And friendship. True, real, friendships. New and  old.

And when I have or have tried, you helped me change that defect. You all hold me accountable. I have learned to replace the negative with positivity.

I am forever grateful and truly humbled. From then, now and the future. God Bless you all, I love you.

With deep humility in my heart and soul,

Amy

P. S., See, I told you Dr. Michel Mendler, Dr. Alexander Kuo, Dr. Sathya Pokala, Dr. Irine Vodkin, Dr. Yuko Kono, Dr. Albert Ding, Dr. Joshua Rubin, Dr. Sheri Rosen, and especially my Psychiatrist, Dr. Kurtis Linderman (feel very sorry and please pray for this kind man for listening to my malaise) and all the many nurses (especially you, Joanie Salotti – knock knock… I’m talking ’bout you Joanie… We have some pickle to eat!!) and support staff at Grossmont and my beloved UCSD Hepatology and Liver Transplant Departments. I did it and will continue to do so! #LifeChange #NeverStopWorking

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My Georgie the Tortie Can Mangia!

Check him out, chomping his food…

TV and my usual stuff..

I realize that this is off topic, but I cannot believe that after, oh wow I think, MY WHOLE LIFE, I’ve never NOT watched The Golden Globes.

I’m flabbergasted and flummoxed!!!

So the red carpet apparently just happened.

I didn’t even know they were on tonight! Since being kidnapped by my boyfriend up here Mount Laguna, I haven’t been watching tv. I did see an episode of Modern Family on my ABC app, but I’ve been busy with the snow, doing work for his business and a filing all my medical stuff, I’ve just not had enough time.

Not to mention, it’s gorgeous here!

 

As you can see, I’m terribly bored… Just kidding.

Anyway, Golden Globes, wow. I guess I’ll have to read about it and see the red carpet online…. Yes, he finally conceded and got me wifi with his Verizon! Yeah me….

Next up… DirecTV for the summer… Now we all know, Miss Amy cannot be without all that is BIG BROTHER,

TV will have to wait. I’ll go out and enjoy my free ice..

Love and Warmth,
Amstergirl

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Making snow angels

Making snow angels

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Ozzie

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Gary and his gorgeous daughter, Chelsea and her friend, Christina

A Sad Tribute – Gary.

UPDATE: We have since broken up, but thought I would still keep this blog as a tribute. Things weren’t all bad, but his frustrations, neuroses, hard-headedness, “my way or the highway” behavior outweighed his love, his support, and his service. I hope to one day repair our friendship, but I need to move on for now and let him do his thing, whatever that thing may be… So in good faith and spirit, I re-post this blog… I do love him still, always will, and I do forever wish him the best.
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Life and all things personal…

12/29/2015

Well, it seems your fabulous liver disease future survivor has taken a gentleman caller! Yep, I’ve gone rogue and accepted a relationship agreement. LMAO!!!!

Now let me explain.

I know you all can’t believe it’s actually happened… But it did. There truly is a man who can actually live with all that is ME! Shocking! Call him a saint. Call him a HERO… Call him whatever you want, but it indeed has happened. A man has actually been taken enough with me to call me his.

Now, I know you all also ask, “how does all this fit in with my disease and illnesses, encephalopathy and upcoming TIPS shunt surgery (yeah, I owe all of you a post about the latest but the holidays totally took over)?”

Well the answer is, he actually is interested in my well-being and future. Your guess is as good as mine but I assume and gather that he actually wants to have a future with me.

He takes me to doctors appointments and my procedures and it doesn’t shake him. He deals with my cuckoo mother and has met my entire family.

For some reason, this man has stuck round.

A little historical….

In April, y’all know how sick I was. We were still trying to get me week to week alive. Well I had started going to AA meetings because, well, I was told to (initially). I went kicking and screaming and incredibly scared. But I went to one in Pine Valley. I sat, quietly. Then this guy walked in the room (he has a tendency to do that) and I start to get a little flustered. More so than I was even before… And I was one, hot, flustered mess prior to that.

So I pretty much sat there for the majority of the meeting, just listening. Really paying attention. Trying to get to know these people through their stories, their struggle.

And after the meeting, I talked to my (now near and dear) friend, Steve P., and he introduced me to some of the members, including McSexyPants (for lack of a better nickname).

So we went out once or twice and I was so still incredibly sick that I just fell off his radar because I moved back to the city for the spring/summer. He did his thing I guess.

I remember hearing that he moved back east or something and this and that from some mutual friends.

I came back to the mountains in September but kept going to my meetings at my dearly beloved Huddle on Goldfinch in Mission Hills (shout out Richard, Anna, Ruthie, Billy, Dr. F, Father John, et al.).

One day I thought I’d stop by on my way back to the mountains to go to the “Ol Pine Valley group meeting”….

I’m sitting there and catching up with Elizabeth and Steve and I’m asked to lead the meeting, which generally is a wonderful thing I like to do, and I start the meeting and LOW AND BEHOLD….

WAIT FOR IT….

…..in walks McSexyPants, who we will now refer to as McSexySaw, because he is a logger and falls extremely large trees for a living…, (i.e., saws really big trees down, for all you city folk) .

I think I just about died, just a little bit. Well, actually, I may have diddled in my granny panties a little too…. Hahahahaha!!

So I proceeded to text with my cousin, who knew about Gary from when we first went out back in April, and continued to be flustered and basically not use proper grammar upon speaking my usual perfect English, for the better part of the entire hour.

After the meeting, I did do all I could to try to get out of there without being seen but god forbid Steve allow that. So I socialized while still trying to stay completely hidden to all things Gary.

To no avail.

He caught me outside the door.

The rest is moot.

A few days later he kissed me, quite abruptly I might add, under the lamppost on Alpine Boulevard and the rest is history…..

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With love always,

Amy